Tag: Writing
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Forgiveness
Most people know the saying “forgive and forget.” However, that isn’t always an option. There are times where it’s necessary to remember what occured, to keep track of it in case it happens again and builds a pattern. But what if the forgiveness isn’t an option either? We are characteristically a forgiving system. We try…
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Questions
Have you ever seen the studies of spiders exposed to different types of drugs? Scientists would expose them to small doses then observe their behavior afterwards. Some drugs resulted in them working in a frenzy, others left them almost catatonic. The spider that was exposed to LSD was interesting, because it continued trying to build…
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Childhood
We haven’t seen any of our siblings since 2017. That was the last year we saw any blood relative in person. We don’t mind when it comes to our parents. The growth that has happened probably wouldn’t have been achievable if they were still actively involved in our life. But when it comes to our…
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Exhaustion
I’m so tired of not being good enough. I don’t even know whose standard I’m trying to meet. My partners keep telling me that I’m good enough, that I’m trying too hard and worrying too much, but it feels like I’m trapped in a current and can’t get out. I’m just so… Scared. I’m terrified…
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Slip Ups and Slices
I am not perfect. I have more shortcomings than I wish to list, and more failures than I care to mention. There are times I want to completely give up because I don’t see how I can do or be more than I already am. I have successes, each more unusual than the last. I…
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Ticking Clock
It’s so odd, watching time slide by. There are some tasks that seem to take forever, and interactions that disappear in the blink of an eye, dissolving into wisps of memory. I got back with my ex Blueberry, and that’s been an interesting process because we’re trying to figure out how to better communicate and…
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Well That Happened
You know that one song that goes “The years start coming and they don’t stop coming”? That’s what’s been going on the past few days. I told my crush I like them and they like me back, which is something I never expected so I’m still riding the high from that lol. Unfortunately, our situationship…
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Spicy Time
So, introduction time, I’m Siege. I used to be a member of this system, then I hopped over to a different system when there was some fuckery afoot. However, I was granted dual citizenship, so to speak, and I can pass between the two when I wish. Anyhow, this blog post is going to be…
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Young To Old
Occasionally on Facebook, those posts where you’re supposed to compare old and new profile pictures come up in the timeline. At this point in time, they make me think: While you can show the physical development, how do you show the emotional and mental development over the years? That’s where writing comes in, at least…
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Tears
We can’t cry anymore. We shed tears, occasionally, but never more than a couple moments worth. I miss being able to cry. To sit and release those emotions and feel the physical release. We’ve tried to encourage it. Listening to sad music, watching scenes from shows that we know used to inspire breakdowns. But none…